HAPPY 19TH MONTHS

It's been 5 months since the last post about everyday with my love.

Today is her aunt's wedding, i know it must be really good to see the wedding. i love wedding party, especially the food lol.
Happy wedding auntie, on this beautiful occasion i wish you a day full of cherished moments. and grow in love and happines together.

to my sweet love:

you know that everyday my feeling is getting stronger when i heard anything from you, like your daily activities, what is up and many things.

And today, the last month of this year.
The beautiful year that i spend with you. im really happy this year, not just this year but everyday is special with you. It's full of beautiful memories with you.

But today i wanna say, Happy 19th months my love.
i just wish that we can be together forever, grow old and live happily. amen

Im really happy that i can spend 19 months with you. and i know that you are really busy these days, so i pray everyday for you and your family, and also for your business.
God bless nana, my love. i cant say many great things, but all i hope is the best for us, especially you.
I love you nanannanaaa
always love you
always
*kissu


stay sweet and cheerful everyday nanananaa

HAPPY 14TH MONTHSARRY

To the girl that i love, today is our 14th. yeayyyy
Happy 14th month my one and only love.

Dengan bertambahnya hari demi hari bersama nana, aku berharap semua nya dapat berjalan dengan lancar dalam hubungan ini.
dan yg terpenting nana semakin sayang sama adi ( aku mksdnya wkwk )
bcoz i really love you nana love.
im completely in love with you. jangan bosan" ya naaa *kissu

aku jujur hari hari belakangan ini selalu ngerasa kangen smaa nanaa.
sering bolak balik, dengerin vn, play video. mata suka basah sendiri. entah gmn aku ga bisa menjelaskan rasanya ini. i cant describe it, all i know is i love you from the depths of my heart. aku sayang nana bgtt.

Setiap hari selalu kangen nana, pgn slalu ada nana, selalu mikirin nanaa.
I lovd you nanaa.
HAPPY 14TH MONTHS NANA
and i loved you yesterday, i love you still, and always love you nana love
*kissu

THE 1ST ANNIVERSARY

i wrote and prepared this yesterday, but i fell asleep. I can say how happy i am, but im really really happy to be with you.
Happy 1st annyversary nana love <3

""Hari ini ga terasa udah satu tahun kita sama", satu tahun yang penuh dengan banyak hal yang begitu berharga.
Nana tau? aku belum pernah merasakan yg namanya dilengkapi, nyaman dan dicintai tapi mulai setahun yg lalu aku merasakan semuanya bahkan lebih. Membuat aku lebih bahagia dari yg bisa dibayangin, meski aku ga bisa nunjukinnya atopun expresiinnya.

Sama nana kita berbagi senang dan duka, tawa dan tangisan. Dan melewati smua hal itu aku bersyukur ada nana yg ada disetiap harinya. Aku tahu aku ga bisa apa", ga punya pengalaman apapun, aku ga tau gmn caranya ungkapin semuanya.

aku seneng bisa terbuka sama nana, karena aku mau sebuah keterbukaan yg saling membangun. aku berdoa selalu untuk nana dan keluarga, untuk semuanya untuk keseharian dan kedepannya.
aku sayang nanaa, aku mencintai nana, aku mengasihi nana.

di hari ini juga, skali lagi aku minta maaf kalau aku udah pernah bikin nana ganyaman atas semua kebodohan yg udah aku lakuin. 2x nana blok aku buntu dan ga tau gmn aku cuma bisa nangis.
dibalik semua hal itu aku bersyukur Tuhan memberikan waktu yang berharga dalam hidup ini untuk bisa kenal nana lebih dekat. gatau gmn cara tulisnya lagi. Dari semua yang dialami sedih, senang, tertawa, senyum, semangat itu menghiasi hari ku na, intinya aku selalu sayang nana dan berharap semuanya dapat berjalan dengan baik dan diberikan kekuatan untuk bersama melewati semuanya.

nana love, thank you for taking the time to share your words.
I love you and look forward to sharing all of our tomorrows together.
i love you, i love you , i love you and remember im yours always and forever.
Happy Anniversary, my sweet. ""

Today is Baksos day ( i dont know the words in english ) and also The Anniversary day haha
Im happy that you shared your photos, as always you look sweet and beautiful even you dont wear makeup *imut bgttt
im happy that the event is running smothly according to the plan.

Im sorry i cant make a call with you, but im not in a good mood at that moment.
I know there's something missing (maybe) but for me today is a great day.
Make me smile when i recalled everything back then, it was a beautiful memories.
It makes me fall in love with you even more. I hope that you feel the same thing my sweetie.
And i always pray for everything, for you and your family, for all your business, and for our relationship. i hope it will last forever.

HAPPY 1ST ANNIVERSARY MY SWEETIE WIFEY, MY LOVE
I LOVE YOU NANAA LOVE
ALWAYS LOVE YOU

WHO AM I ?

After the saddest moment in my life.
I can accept everything, because of The Lord who gives me strenght. Thank you Jesus for always there when im sad and down, thankyou Lord.
But i know why, im sure that , im 100% safe. but after i read it all over again, it hurts af.
But i come to You Lord, please help me, i believe in You. i know that You never leave me Lord, amen

Im just confused, i dont know what to do.
I wont give up, because the Spirit that lives in me is greater that the spirit in this world.

I hope tomorrow will be better . im sorry for everything, im sorry for being loyal, im sorry if you dont like a loyal and good guy, i want to become a bad boy just like what you like but i cant because whats the point of being a bad guy? being loyal to one person is more challenging. i just dont know how, i love you love.

i wont run and leave everything behind, because run is for the weak. Running from all the problems wont solve it, just making it even worse. i know i know
i want to conquer the iron throne, every scar will build my throne, every wound will shape me.
I will survive even if i walk through the darkest valley, i will not be afraid for You are beside me.

To my love, i love you. i know who i am, im nothing compared to all of them, i know im not the only one who greet you every morning and night, i know that i know nothing. But i always love you, you are my everything, you are the only one who i greet everyday, you always in my heart, and you are the only one i love.

Good night my sweet wifey
i love you *i say this words only for you*

IM SORRY

I decided to write everything on this blog but im busy .
At first, i want to show you this blog on the day we meet, but one month before, i think i will show you this blog on our first anniversary.
But i know it all just a dream, because you hate me so much now.
When you read this, i know it's all too late for everything, but please read all my feeling on this blog for the last time.
i know you may think that everthing that i wrote here is nothing. Or maybe you wont open this blog after i sent you the last message? (maybe)

Im sorry, after all this time you endure everything, about how annoying i am, about how i made you feel uncomfortable, i made you mad and sad.
I know that im not good for you, not a single thing of me is good enough for you.
I know that you dont want to talk with me anymore, i know that you hate me that you want to erase all the memories that we made together.
yeah i know how you feel my sweetie wifey.

i know the solution that i made today wont work for us. but i tried, because i love you
i shared what i got in church today and i know it wont work because you hate me already and there wont be a place for me anymore.
and when you blocked me before i finished my words, it hurts but its nothing compared to what i've done to you.
just like you said yesterday, like a book, what has been written cant be erased. so yeahh , everything that i've done is always there in your deepest feeling even if we managed to solve it.

i dont know what to say, but just like what i say everyday. I LOVE YOU NANA LOVE *kissu
i miss you so much *hug
i hope you get better, always loved by your family and friends (and me? haha *cry) and be happy

*wrote it all with my eyes wet*
**thankyou for giving your time to read this blog my sweetie wifey**

LOVELY

I cant write everything here coz I got so many things to do and the most is about college stuff. I hope i can graduate this year and do something for my life. *pray

Previously on my lovestory :
On Monday, 29 February 2016, finally we did it !!
OMG my heart beats faster and faster and faster till my head can felt it.
We talked about 29 minute if im not mistaken. I saw her face live, that was the best feeling ever !!
She looks so lovely with sweet smile, i can't take my eyes from her. She's so beautiful, gorgeous!!, i know many guy said the same thing, but this word pop up in my mind when i saw her.
I told her that it was my first time, and it's true, never did it before. it doesn't matter if she didn't believe me, everything that i say is the truth, i want to be honest in this relationship.
I feel my love to her is growing everyday and keep growing until now.
i really love you my sweetie wifey, love you so much <3

Many good things happened after that, we chat about many things, and still i miss you my love, i want to meet you. i know maybe i won't be good enough and i will melt in front of you haha coz you are so lovely and cute ヾ(〃ﾟーﾟ〃)ノ

Yesterday was her brother's wedding day. She sent me many photos of her. And everytime i see her in a picture, my heart beating faster. she's so beautiful in that dress. and everything about her is beautiful. And the next day she sent more than a photo, it was a video!!
and it made me really excited, she looks really happy and enjoy everything. you know what ? and i keep repeating the moment when she appeared in the video and smile.. ooohhhh she's so beautiful
i got a headache because of my heart beat really hard haha. and repeat it till i feel asleep.
Im so happy so see her like that, she looks really really great.
I love you my sweetie wifey <3
i miss you

HEARTILY SONG

After few days passed, i don't know what to write about it.
I don't know how to express my feeling, all i can say is i love you and i mean it, its not a common words that i say to everyone, only for you my first love.
Many things happened and i feel a little bit uncomfortable, but as i said before, i will endure it all inside me. even if many guys tries to chat with you and im jealous, it doesnt matter anymore, i can handle it. when that thing happen what can i do ? and who am i ? i'm just a man~ who falling in love for the first time.

Ohh yaa, i sang a song for her on valentine's day, the title is nothing's gonna change my love for you, i said to her that i was just randomly sing that song, but actualy i prepared everything for few days, i hope she like it, i just want you to know that nothing's gonna change my love for you. And at our 9 months we reach 30.000 love points in aum, the ring name is God Bless, i hope with this achievement our journey is going well and lovely.

I love to see her sweet smile and never get bored, but i don't know about her, maybe she forget about what she said, but it doesn't matter.. All i know is i love her with all my heart. The next day, she wasn't in a good condition and also something happened. And she send her pict last night, u know what?? she looks beautiful in white !! i can't say a word, just keep staring at it.

And also we use free call yester day, if u want to know, i want to call her everyday !!
but i never make a phone call before, especially with a girl. We talked about many thing, my heart always beatfaster when it's about her, for this time is her voice. She said that someone says that her voice sounds weird, but i don't agree, her voice is really soft and warm. She told me about that guy but its okay, i can endure it for now haha
and also she said that we already 9 months but talking on phone can be counted with hand. I just wanna let you know, that i want to talk with you everyday but as i said before i never make phone call before, so i think that i will bother you with phone calls and here is about the videocall, looking at your face when talking is one of my dream, but i have one problem , my phone's front camera is really bad, so i don't think that it will do good with video call. But i will keep do it even the camera is not good enough. Because i love you my sweetie wifey, i hope we can reach our dream together . amen